Day 336: lovemore monday :: home

3 Dec

As you know, I entered this year determined to be fearless. But, I don’t want more fear or less in my life.  I want more love.  So I made up a new word, lovemore!   That’s why Lovemore Mondays are here.

Today’s Lovemore Monday is a song about home.

As in, we don’t have one yet. 

Which is probably why this song brought me to a heaving, gasping, mess of tears the first time I heard it months ago while driving in my car.

Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road

I couldn’t figure out who sang it. I caught the song on the radio and the DJ never again announced who the artist was that sang this melody that cut straight to my heart.

And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Once I finally found out the name of the American Idol who sang the song that whispered to me through the radio one night, I could never remember if his name was actually Stephen Stevens or Phillip Phillips.

Settle down, it’ll all be clear
Don’t pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear

That’s really only because my step-brother’s name is Phillip Stephens and somehow it got lodged into my brain that they shared the same name — except I can never remember which one.

Is he a double Stephen or a double Phillip?

The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Which is why on our long drive from Florida back to Massachusetts last week, as we battled broken radiators, fuel gauges and a traumatic tire, I squealed with delight when the song found me again on the road.

“I love this song!” I said as I turned up the radio.

“Who sings it?” Justin said.

Steven Stephens,” I said with total confidence. Then the radio DJ came on and scolded me. It was Phillip Phillips — of course.

It didn’t matter who sang it in the moment, I just recognized the song when I heard it.

And I suppose that’s what makes “home” so special. No matter what you call it or where it is, you always know it when you see it, feel it, taste it or smell it.

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Even though we haven’t yet found our “forever home” I know “home” is really something that can’t be placed or seen. It’s already there.

It’s lodged somewhere between the memories we make on Christmas morning, the sleepy silence at breakfast on Monday mornings, the giggles after a fight, the wiping away of tears, the pep talks after a lost game, the phone that rings too late at night or too early in the morning.

It’s found in the space between every day and never before.

A place that resides deep inside our hearts.

And that’s why, on this Lovemore Monday…
I. Love. It.

And …here’s that song I love too (sung by Phillip Phillips in case you didn’t remember!):

2 Responses to “Day 336: lovemore monday :: home”

  1. MaryB December 3, 2012 at 9:06 PM #

    Wow! I love that song Home by Phillip Phillips. Coincidentally I down loaded that song early tonight. I’m glad your HOME !

  2. Diane Neal Emmons December 3, 2012 at 10:48 PM #

    I wish you what i know: Wherever you are will be a happy home. Love, love

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