I had a profoundly wonderful conversation with a friend today that made me remember this blog post from last year. So, I opted to republish tonight because I think it is significant.
This one’s for you my dear…believe in yourself.
On Day 149 I wrote about how I held on to this blog for one more day after seeing the movie Bridesmaids and it’s absolutely 80’s theme song Hold On by Wilson Phillips.
Later, Cheryl posted a fantabulous question:
My question to you is: if you had to pick ONE song as your THEME song, what would it be?’
Now, that’s a great question, especially during this year and through the course of The Promise 365. So great, I am dedicating an entire blog post to it. So, thank you Cheryl, from the bottom of my heart.
Here we go…
Before I share my theme song, I want to share what I think about theme songs ~ I believe in them. I always have one.
I blame Whitney Houston.
If it weren’t for Whit, I wouldn’t have started my love affair with theme songs.
You see it all began at a 6th grade slumber party.
It occurred during a lip-sync competition in my friend’s living room. My song was Greatest Love of All and I was stage ready, with hair brush in hand and collar turned up I stole the shag carpet living room stage with wood paneling backdrop. I practically had the audience (five other 12 year-old girls) crying by the time I was done with that little number.
At least that’s what I remember. I put my heart and soul into it.
And, yes, that may be right about the time I realized not everyone sings into their hair brush microphone in front of the bathroom mirror and bright vanity lights at night.
But, I won the lip-sync competition and was properly rewarded with a bag of Doritos and a movie we watched on a “VCR” ~ have I properly dated myself yet?
That was circa 1986, but it doesn’t stop there.
Zoom forward to 1991, a first kiss, a first fall for love and a first really bad choice in theme song. Justin came into my life right about the time Paula Abdul came on the national scene. Which explains why our first song will forever be remembered as Rush, Rush ~ one we couldn’t rush fast enough to regret (the song, not the first kiss!).
There was my high school senior song, Right Here, Right Now by Jesus Jones. That was 1992 and it came into my life following my diagnosis of cancer and months of treatment followed by the hoopla of graduation, college acceptance, and a new frontier I was grateful to explore, leaving the IV’s, radiation and surgery behind.
(As a side note, the rest of my graduating class voted for Joker, by Steve Miller Band).
Five years later, after college and dating and break-ups and the craziness of trying to grow up, I celebrated my 5 year remission mark by renting out a bar and throwing a party in Washington D.C. with all my brand new co-workers who had known me for all of five minutes. There’s nothing like meeting someone for the first time with an intro of: “Hi, I’m Jamie. I had cancer, want to come to my remission party?”
It worked, the bar was packed. I hired a band and they brought another band to open for them. And they played my theme song. What was it? Alive. It was the “I’m still alive” part that got me drunk, singing at the top of my lungs. Hey, I was 22 years old.
A few years later I experienced the first deep loss of my life.
It was also the moment that I had my first encounter with a mystical force that is beyond words. My mother passed away after a long battle with breast cancer.
On the night she died, I was over 1,000 miles away from her in Ann Arbor, Michigan. In the middle of the night, I woke up and bolted straight up in bed. I looked at the clock and stared with confusion until I fell back asleep. I later found out that was the exact time of my mother’s death. Shortly after her funeral this song found me, 1000 Miles by Vanessa Carlton. In fact, it still finds me, at the most appropriate times.
There were many happy years with lots of happy songs, jobs, condos, marriage, until of course there wasn’t. Disaster struck.
I left my home, my marriage and my life all in one night.
That’s another story for another day, but my theme song got me through it. Whenever Pink came on the radio belting out So What I turned up the volume and screamed from the top of my lungs. I did that for two years until the divorce papers came through signed, sealed, and delivered.
And, that pretty much brings us full circle, which brings this little story back to Justin.
We reconnected on Facebook, of all places, fifteen years after that first kiss. Well, you can’t blame us for “rushing” into anything. You could say we took our time or maybe held our breathe, or a little of both. Either way, Just Breathe by Pearl Jam played in our hearts and minds as we moved to a little island off Cape Cod to figure it all out.
And, now, to answer Cheryl’s question.
My current theme song of 2011 for this Promise of 365 Days is….
I could have chosen Raise Your Glass or Firework or so many more. But here’s where I landed, for a year of focusing on my head, heart, body & soul:
Believe In Yourself by Brad.
Because, I believe you can do anything…
If you believe in yourself.
I would love to hear some of your theme songs.