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JAMIE’S BLOG – YEAR 9 – DAY 312 :: fear less – 53 days to go

8 Nov

{trust}  

There are 53 days left of The Promise 365!

Each year during my promise, I always learn something profound. It usually happens around the month of October, after weeks and weeks and months and months of blogging, each year I finally learn the lesson I was meant to absorb.

In my very first year of blogging it was the power of love. At an event in Naples, Florida I heard Marianne Williamson speak on Day 75 where she spoke about love and relationships. It was she who also taught me that there are only two forces in the world, love, and fear. We can only think and operate with one at a time, either love or fear. Never both at the same time.

So, in Year 2, my promise was to Love More and Fear Less. I even made t-shirts!

This promise sent me on many adventures to face my fears. Justin and I swam with sharks in the Bahamas. We rafted the Grand Canyon with family (and slept on rocks crawling with spiders). I threw my old wedding ring in the fountain of St. Sulpice in the center of Paris.

Right after I threw that wedding ring away I was convinced to dig it out and sell it for money instead of leaving it symbolically sitting in a fountain halfway across the world. It was a perfectly good diamond, worth good money, and the responsible thing to do. So I did.

When I returned home, I took the diamond ring to a jeweler. He inspected it under his magnifying glass and declared it was cracked. Cracked? Right through the middle. Of course! Just like my first marriage, even though it was shiny on the outside, it was totally broken on the inside.

Sometimes we want things to be better than they really are, sometimes we see things through rose color glasses. And sometimes, we have to love ourselves enough to quit the things that might be shiny but are irreparably cracked. I think this is the definition of self-care – to say yes to only the things that nurture you and no to everything else.

In many ways, this has been the theme of The Promise 365. The blog came into my life soon after that divorce and with it came many lessons to take care of my head, heart, body and soul, and of course my mantra, to love more and fear less.

So, on this night, with 53 days left of this promise as we know it, I share this mantra once again. Wherever life finds you, may you always focus on the love. 

Trust me!
More tomorrow.Jamie

{trust}
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2014 BLOG – DAY 60 :: miracles appear in the most unusual places

1 Mar

I lost my diamond earring today.

I reached up to my earlobe as I was working at my desk and gasped with horror. My earring was gone!

Not just any earring. It was the earring that Justin gave me for my birthday a few weeks ago. The diamond earrings he helped design.

I immediately dropped on my hands and knees and began scouring the carpet. Nothing.

I stripped the bed. Nothing.

I took a flashlight and crawled on the floor under our bed. Nothing.

The closet. Nothing.

The bathroom. Nothing.

I even checked the kitchen, the laundry room, the couch, the front step and my car. NOTHING!

Losing my diamond earring just capped off a week to forget. The lump in my left breast. The naked hole in my right earlobe. It was just too much. Finally I called Justin and immediately began to cry.

He told me to sit tight and wait.

“Don’t move anything until I get home. We will find it.”

“Okay.” I blubbered into the phone.

As I waited, I realized the insight that this undefined lump in my left breast has given me. It’s clearly brought into focus all that is important. All that I can change. What I can impact and what I have power over. And what I don’t.

In short, I realized that a lost earring can be replaced.

So I resigned myself to the idea of just paying to have another earring made. After all, it was a gift for my 40th birthday, and it was special, because it was from Justin, so I would find a way to replace it myself.

When Justin arrived home we turned the entire house inside out. He strapped on his headlamp and I followed with a flashlight. He lifted the mattress off the bed. He opened the pull-out bed inside the couch. No stone was left unturned.

The earring was still  missing. It was no where to be found. We collectively gave up. The search was called off. Case. Closed.

Just as we put the couch back together, I stood up. My underwear began creeping up my backside from all the aerobic searching. I reached down to pull the elastic back in place, where it belonged, when I felt something hard, small and sharp.

“My earring!”  I screamed with joy as I lifted it out of my pants.

“Is this a joke?” Justin looked slightly angry. “Have you been walking around with that in your pants just to tease me?”

“It’s not a joke.” I shook my head in disbelief. “I cannot believe it was in there. It must have fallen into my clothing when I was dressing this morning.”

I was dumfounded. I couldn’t believe it. I never even thought to look in my underwear.

“You never checked your clothes?” Justin asked as he chuckled, clearly as relieved as I felt.

“I didn’t even think of it.”

“See,”  Justin hugged me tight. “Miracles can happen.”

We were both relieved to find the missing diamond earring. But, deep down inside I knew he was talking about something else.

And it’s a good reminder to me. Even when all feels lost, there’s probably a place that I just haven’t looked. There’s probably a small miracle just waiting to be found.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}
Jamie

{here’s to miracles}
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