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Jamie’s BLOG – DAY 123 :: beautiful rainbow moments

4 May

My year started out seeking peak performance. Now I am searching for beauty. I’m still pondering the recipe for my personal best, but I am slowly realizing that it can’t occur without a major appreciation for the minor moments.

Like this:

It’s a rainbow. But not just any rainbow. It’s the kind that comes after waiting for the rain to go away.

Sometimes the most beautiful moments are found after the storm. After being whipped by the wind and pelted by the rain. It may be the only way to appreciate the vibrant colors that appear against a grey sky.

After all:

“Everybody wants happiness nobody wants pain
but you can’t have a rainbow without a little rain.”
― Zion Lee

Signing off for the night, somewhere over the rainbow. Happy. Content. Full of appreciation for the minor moments of sharing a day with family, rain, beach combing, art crafting and rainbow chasing.

It just may be peak performance.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore,
Jamie

{what fulfilled you today?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 261 :: somewhere over the rainbow

20 Sep

I visited the vampires today.
Another hospital, another blood draw.

And I have to admit it is so much easier to get poked with a needle after having a clean bill of health. Amazing what that big word PERSPECTIVE can do for pain management.

I feel like I have made it to the other side of this medical journey. And it feels good to be here.

After I left the hospital I hopped in my car and headed home. As I pulled up to a stoplight I looked at the road ahead. Would you believe there was an honest-to-goodness-real rainbow hanging in the sky ahead of me.

So I did what anyone who just had their blood sucked out of their veins would do… I chased it.  Maybe I was light headed or a little woozy, but it was so pretty I had to get closer.

I weaved my way through town, holding my camera up to my windshield just to get a photo. In the middle of driving and balancing my iPhone on my steering wheel I thought… this can’t be safe… and can I get pulled over for this? 

Regardless… I chased on.
My chase took me through town, down roads, over hills and past fields I have never seen before. And finally, I got the shot I was looking for.

It makes me wonder…
What is really at the end of the rainbow?

I finally, after months of this long journey, think I know….
They say the journey is really the hidden treasure.

I have to agree.

Where is your journey taking you?

More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}
Jamie

{what’s at the end of your rainbow?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 151 :: 30 days of love: looking for a rainbow

31 May

It’s DAY 21 over here of the 30 Days of Love. We’ve already had two yummy recipes and a week-long Giveaway, some treats, a sneeze, some wise words to the Class of 2013, some news, a Pop Quiz, 3 things I love, a biopsy, a call to say what you need to say, a prayer, a choice, a reminder of home, a sunrise, a road trip, a little joy, and now
Looking for a rainbow.
We left sunny OHIO yesterday with our cars packed and my heart full.
I woke up early so I could see my friend Jill in Hudson, Ohio. I originally met Jill at Smith College almost twenty years ago and we have’t seen each other in four years.
But, hanging out with Jill felt like not a day had gone by, as if we meet at Starbucks for coffee every week. Jill is a soul sister, a friend who I love dearly, despite the miles in between our daily lives.
After hugging goodbye, our caravan hit the road.
After running along at a slow pace through Ohio construction, Jaynane took over the wheel just in time for some serious traffic around Gary, Indiana.We were surrounded. My little Nissan wedged in between a line of semi trucks and we lost Justin somewhere in crowd of merging and honking, beeping traffic.Never fear. We two girls knew where we were going. So we pressed on.

Justin phoned to check on our coordinates (thank God for cell phones!) and informed us that the weather report called for hail, 70 mile per hour winds and potential tornadoes.

The sky was turning dark in front of us, but we agreed to watch the weather report and pull over if necessary.

Our radio station wasn’t great so Jayane asked me if I knew the song that was in her head.

“It goes, I’ll be next to you, or something like that.” Jaynane repeated over and over. I couldn’t locate the melody in the anals of radio history within my brain so I turned to my cell phone for help.

You mean, “Next to me?” I ready my Google results. “By Emeli Sandé?”

“Yes!”

We played the song as loud as we could on my iPhone. Singing at the top of our lungs.

When the money’s spent and all my friends have vanished
and I can’t seem to find no help or love for free
I know there’s no need for me to panic
cause i’ll find him, i’ll find him next to me

The sky was growing darker with each stanza, and then, Emile sang to us:

When the skies are grey and all the doors are closing
and the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
well, all I need is a hand to stop the tears from falling
I will find him, will find him next to me

The storm clouds grew even nastier, darker and more ominous out our windows.

Justin called me back. “There’s no wind right now, which isn’t a good sign.”

It felt like we were driving right into the eye of the storm. Images of cows flying through the air and tornado chasers ran through  my mind.

And, then, just as we crossed over the Mississipi River, and passed the “Iowa Welcomes You” sign, the sky opened up and began to pour. We couldn’t see out our windows despite the wipers flying back and forth across the windshield.

So we pulled over and waited out the storm. Trucks and cars zoomed by us at lightning speed. And, while I felt safe on the side of the road I wondered if the other cars could see us — because we could barely see out our window.

Justin called and confirmed there was a rest area two miles up the road. We waited for a pause and then jumped back on the highway to meet Justin at the next rest station.

After the rain eventually stopped and the sun began to poke through and we continued down the road, Jaynane said:

“Look for the rainbow! There’s always a rainbow after a storm.”

Yes! I thought. There’s always a rainbow. But, today, on highway 80, there were NO rainbows.

A few miles down the road, I turned on the radio and our dear friend Emile’s voice sang out to us, again, this time even louder and stronger.

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

We were back in action. With sunny skies. But still no rainbow.

An hour later my friend Sara called. She tried to sing the lyrics to the song “On the road again” but couldn’t remember what came after, “I just can’t wait to get on the road again.”

As we laughed, my cell beeped through and then I lost a call. “Shoot,” I said to Sara. “That might be my doctor.”

“Just call the number back.” Sara reasoned.
So I did.

It was my doctor. 

She had my complete test results. It turns out I have a mixed bag. The largest nodule on my thyroid is benign (yeah!!) but the other two are not quite so clear. One is suspicious with carcinoma cells, from the test results, but my doctor said it may very well be benign.

Bottom-line, I have a choice: surgery to remove the thyroid, or more testing to see if the suscpicious node is cancerous.

As I hung up the phone and reported the results to Jaynane with a heavy heart, I couldn’t help but feel that I am again, in the eye of the storm. More medical care. More decisions to make. A potential surgery. Another doctor.

I wanted the results to be benign. I hoped to be able to put my head back in the sand and pretend that it isn’t happening to me. I just wanted it to be over, to move on, to be free and clear.

But…. that’s not where I am.

As we pressed forward, out of the corner of my window I spotted something shiny.

“Look!” I screamed to Jaynane, startling her. “A rainbow!”

Off in the field, out my window, was the slight beginning of a rainbow. A sheer of colored light making its way through the clouds.
A ray of hope.
And a good reminder.
There’s always a rainbow after a storm.

Westward bound.
More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}
Jamie

{when is the last time you saw a rainbow?}
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