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2014 BLOG – DAY 24 thyroid scars unite!

24 Jan

The power of sharing. 

Tonight I realized that sometimes peak performance comes down to realizing you can do it — because others have done it before.

Sometimes the confidence it takes to perform comes down to knowing there are others who totally understand where you’ve been, what you are going through, and share what the road ahead looks like.

I had a glimpse of that tonight in Portland. We painted a mural in honor of thyroid awareness. But it was more like painting a picture of that “road ahead” for me.

It was a reunion with my fabulous surgeon, Dr. Mira Milas!
It was an amazing event with Joni from Bottle & Bottega Portland!
And it was an introduction to another thyroid patient and survivor Katee Sackhoff.

The night consisted of comparing and showing off our scars:


Making a small contribution:

And seeing the big picture come toghether:

Here’s the most important lesson for me — recognizing all the beautiful, amazing, incredible pieces it takes to make up the whole.

And getting a little boost from someone who has been in this game a little longer than I have.
There’s hope in that.
Seeing is believing.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}

{what gives you hope?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 291 :: before and after

18 Oct

In keeping with my promise to seek abundance, here’s my Abundance Photo of the Day… my scar!

(before and after)

The top photo is my scar one week after thyroid surgery and the bottom photo is from today. Eight weeks later.

Before and after.
Then and now.

At first the scar looked like a pair of lips smiling up to the sky. I thought that was pretty symbolic given the benign diagnosis and my complete and utter sigh of relief.

Where the skin was all puckered up, swollen and red, it now looks like a line across my throat.

Most days I forget that it’s there.
And that’s abundance if you ask me.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}

{how do you feel abundant?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 232: my favorite things – thought of the day

22 Aug

Today continues My Favorite Things with you.
It’s a video series.

So, while I can’t really keep up with the blog in between medical appointments, the hospital, and recovery this week, I can keep up with you. At least virtually over video.

Go ahead, click… do it… wink, wink, nudge, nudge.

If the video doesn’t play, click here:
I hope you enjoy!More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}
{what are your favorite things?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 230 :: my favorite things – gifts!

20 Aug

Today begins a new series over here called My Favorite Things!

We are on the coast tonight and leave tomorrow for Portland and will officially kick off “Party In Portland” otherwise known as…. thyroid surgery.

Part of my goal during this journey has been to make the medical process fun, interesting, insightful, and learning and sharing along the way before going under the knife.

Now….I am thrilled to share My Favorite Things with you.
It’s a video series.

So, while I can’t really keep up with the blog in between medical appointments, the hospital, and recovery this week, I can keep up with you. At least virtually over video.

So, here we go! It all starts today… click below. Go ahead… do it… wink, wink, nudge, nudge.

If you cannot see today’s video, please click here.

Lovemore {fearless}

{What are your favorite things?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 217 :: an apple a day keeps the doctor…

6 Aug
Another day, another doctor.Yesterday, I met my newest doctor. Add one more to Team Thyroid! 
As I sat in the endocrinologist’s waiting room I had a pep talk with myself.
Or rather, the anti-pep talk.
 “Don’t make any jokes. Please don’t make any jokes. No jokes today, okay?” I practically pleaded with my internal-coping-mechanism-comedian-self who scoffed back at me.
“Yeah, right, HA!”As the nurse checked me in to her little lair and took my height (good news, I have not shrunk, still over 5′ 10”) and weight (148.5 but who’s counting?) and blood pressure (122 over 80), I spied her name tag.JAIMEE

“That’s how I always wanted to spell my name!” I exclaimed with glee.

“Really?” She beamed. “I’ve never met anyone who spells their name like this.”

“Exactly,” I smiled back. Five minutes in to the appointment and not a joke uttered.

When my doctor arrived on the scene my nerves must have receded. Maybe it was the book I read while sitting in the waiting room (Natures Secret Messages: Hidden in Plain Sight) or maybe it was just the end of the day and we were all exhausted. Regardless, not a joke was left in me and I remained calm, almost human.

“So tell me the background of all this,” he looked over my charts.
My mind sputtered… how do I shorten “all this” (see my hands waving in the air drawing a huge circle around my life) into just the primary key points…. hum? I must have looked lost because then he continued.
“How did you find the lump?”
“I didn’t. My friend pointed it out to me over lunch back in February.”
And from there I told the tale of Jamie (who doesn’t spell her name Jaimee) and how she discovered the lump in said throat, tried to get a doctor’s appointment and 6 months later, 5 specialists removed, scheduled a thyroidectomy for Aug 22.(Amazingly succinct and without any jokes I might add!)”Humm…” My new doctor looked perplexed. “It took you that long to see a doctor in Boston (hands drawing big circle in the air as if scooping up the entire Boston metro region).

“I know, weird, right?” I nodded as someone finally validated my struggle. I officially liked this new doctor.

He then said the most amazing words to me. “I’m taking thyroid cancer off your record.”

“Really?” I cocked my head to the side and leaned forward.

“We don’t know what it is yet. First, you need to have surgery and we need to get the path results back.  There is only a 50% chance this is malignant.”

“Oh…” I hesitated. 50/50 odds. Sounds… well, half good?

“Those are high numbers.” He continued making my nerves calm down even more, I might have been numb actually.

And then we made a plan.

There are two paths to take, one involves removing the thyroid getting all good news and everything is in the clear.  The other involves everything above but with not-so-good-news and a little radioactive therapy.

If all goes well we can start trying to have a family immediately (within reason) after the surgery. If Plan B goes into action we have to wait a year, which honestly breaks my heart.

I am 39. That’s a stat that I can’t change. I cannot diet or carb load to move that number up or down the scale. It is truth.

But, I am hopeful.
Hey, the odds are 50/50.

And I have faith.
Because even though it doesn’t always feel like it, that’s a big number.

And I have a great team in place.
I choose to move through this with love and faith and hope.

In fact, the surgery in Portland has been officially renamed. It is now dubbed:  Party In Portland.

Care to join us?  We will be painting at the Rogue Distillery Aug 21st the night before. Grab your seat and drink and come on down!

No joke.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore {fearless}
P.S. The CARD CRUSADE continues! And it is all made possible by Green Ink Gallery. Check out their beautiful fine art cards!
P.P.S.  Today’s card goes out to someone who is celebrating a birthday this month… that’s your hint!
{how can you rely on faith today?}

BLOG – GIFT DAY 204 :: turning lemons into lemonade… or how to make surgery fun

23 Jul
We are one month out. Surgery officially begins in 30 days. And, I am determined to make it fun. So last week I designed and ordered this tee shirt.
It’s kind of silly for something so serious. But that’s why I love it.

My dear Mama Sling would always say, “If I have to be there, I might as well have fun.”

So in her brilliantly loving spirit, I say, “They took my thyroid and all I got was this awesome Tee Shirt!”

Of course it says “lovemore fearless” on it too. And that’s the funny thing about this promise, this journey, this adventure.

I made a promise to love more and fear less last year. And I made a promise to find abundance this year.

As it turns out I feel caught right in the middle, where love and fear and abundance intersect. 

There is nothing more precious than health. And, for good health, I say, laugh more.

More tomorrow.

Lovemore {fearless}
P.S. The Card Crusade continues!  Yesterday’s cards went to Sara Schaeffner and Janet Shea. This is all made possible by Green Ink Gallery. Check out their beautiful fine art cards!P.P.S. Today’s card went to someone I am related to… she has known me my entire life!

{how can you laugh more?}

GIFT DAY 092 a funny thing happened on the way to the doctor’s office {30-day gratitude challenge: day 16}

2 Apr

Day 16 of the 30-Day Gratitude Challenge over here.

Today I am grateful for:

1) Finally seeing a doctor
2) Finally seeing a doctor
3) Finally seeing a doctor

I have spent the last month trying to get a doctor’s appointment.

You see, I have swelling in my throat. At first I thought I had a cold. But when the swelling didn’t go away, I freaked out. Big time.

My doctor’s office offered me an appointment in June.

Then I called back to demand an appointment SOONER and they put me on hold.

On hold.

Finally the switchboard clicked back over, and told me they would call me back after 4:45pm to schedule an appointment.

You can guess how that ended. They never called back. On a Friday no less.


In lieu of medical care I started acupuncture. My acupuncturist tipped me off to a local doctor and voila! I got an appointment for today.

This morning, when I entered the totally beautiful and zen doctor’s office for my 10:30am appointment I was immediately crushed. They didn’t have me on the books. No appointment under my name.

I thought about laughing, or crying, or maybe screaming from the top of my swollen throat.

Instead, I thought of a phrase from The Art of Possibility: Transforming Professional and Personal Life – whenever anything goes out of control, haywire or just plain down the dumps, it’s best to look at it with open eyes and just say, “How fascinating.”

So I remained calm. And the woman behind the desk took pity and slipped me in for the 1pm time slot today.

How fascinating.

Finally. The doctor will see you …now. And she did.

Diagnosis: I have a goiter.

It’s sound disgusting, and looks like a golf ball got lodged in my throat instead of in a sand trap on the back nine. My thyroid is swollen up like a balloon.

So I have tons of tests to take this week, but I am so thankful that I finally have a new doctor looking after me.

Turns out she’s exactly what I need: an expert in women’s health, fertility and, GULP, goiters. {GRATEFUL!}

My first item of business, an alkaline diet. As my doctor explained to me what an alkaline diet consists of – whole foods, green juices, veggies galore – I had to hold back a chuckle.

Been there, done that.
Like The Promise 365, year one.

Back to the days of green smoothies, veggies, no sugar, no coffee and no animal meat for me.

It’s like déjà vu over here.
But this will no doubt be a very new journey.

How fascinating.

More tomorrow.
Lovemore (fearless),

{Share what you’re grateful for in the comments section below}

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